The Unveiling of Revealtions and Myself

It has been a great many months since i wrote.
I finally found that i needed this time to adjust and see where God was leading.
Noah is now almost 10months and finally i feel ready to begin my discovery of Christ again.

Today i attended the 3rd lesson of the Precept studies on Revelations @ FMC (church). Going into this i knew that this was going to take a lot of soul searching and some time management. Still,I do Want a Revelation.

I asked myself through out this 3rd lesson on Revelation 2 have i forgotten my 1st love? In relationships have i even loved before? What is love? I`ve always thought love was to have that physical chemistry between you and another person but is that all it is? Before knowing Him i can truly say i knew nothing. After knowing Christ can i say have i forsaken the precious times i had with Him? Honestly i think i have. I need more of Christ and less of "me" in my life :)

God has been good that he knows me through it all. The Divorce of my parents, the heartbreaks in my life, my past, my future sealed in the palms of His hands. I believed the 1st time i really loved Him was that night in my past where i cried and poured my heart to Him and believed that i can deserve more. I can have a better future. And God, He is a humorous God. He took all the pain and turned me around. The mask. The hidden words that i had never spoken in my heart, the wounds that had been torn and reopened He healed. He even gave me a man that showed me what love truly is. I guess it`s because of our common goal in Christ that we love one another.

D is so much more. He understood my brokenness and how God had changed me. I like to think we compliment each other ;) He says i`m the sunshine in his otherwise dull life and he the anchor in mine. How wonderful it is to love and be loved.

Loving Noah is more than i can imagine. Holding him each morning and smelling his baby smell just before he sleeps gives me pure joy! There are days where i get weary of the routine but i tell myself how blessed i am to be loved and that i am able to love this little, healthy, cheerful baby.

All in all i want more unveiling, I want to learn what HE, the Almighty wants of me. With all the changes to come in our lives may we continue to look upward and not falter behind ;)

Perhaps He is unveiling things to you too?

"Love
And now I will show you the most excellent way.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,. I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge,and if I ahve a faith that can move mountains, but I have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor andsurrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails"

1 Corinthians 13:1-8

Beloved know that He loves you just as He loves me ;)