You are the Sty in my Eye

Blahhhh are you grossed out yet??? This monstrous growth has been invading my eyelid for 1 and a half weeks already.

Yes i have seen the doctor and he gave me some eye drops but *sigh* it looks more like a cluster of pimples. Think i will go see him again tomorrow.

The humbling thing about have a sty is you do not have to worry about eye makeup (in this city of eye liners and fake eyelashes) and you kinda feel liberated wearing glasses and relaxing your eyes.

Today was the last day of my BSF (bible study fellowship) in japan. I felt rather zannen (melancholy??) I remembered coming to my 1st lesson a little skeptical about the theology part and the daily homework. What i have learnt from the lessons, leaders and fellow ladies have been both humbling and eye opening (no pun intended).

Some of this ladies only have English as their 2nd language and do their homework with bilingual bibles and dictionaries. Today was sharing day and i heard of testimonials that made my eyes fill up with tears.

There was this little petite old lady, Irene that really stood out. She is about Mama`s age, 80 plus and has just started Bsf this year. She was originally from Malaysia and has been married to her japanese husband for many years. She told us that she had nearly gone blind this year and for 3 months she had experience total darkness. Yet she strive on praying , refusing to be gloomy and meditated on the word of God and Hymns. She said now she treasures every day she has and wants to share the Word with her loved ones, especially her grandkids.

This lady is so filled with joy as she said all these and i wondered if i would have the same faith and grace when i am her age :) So often we are so clouded by the endless lists of things that we have/want to do and we really seldom have time to reflect. How blessed i have been to be able to have this 3 years in japan.

There are many times where i wished even dreamt of Singapore, but the strength and wisdom of the many ladies i have met in this bible study will stay with me forever. I really do hope i have a chance to carry on my classes in Singapore. I think they are still doing the book of "Matthew" and will be doing "Moses" next year. God willing. :)

My swimming lessons are going really well too. It really is tougher than i thought. We do butterfly and free style. We even kicked with fins (which i totally enjoyed, felt like a dolphin with a big tummy.)It truly is amazing to see pregnant women in their 30 over weeks with their huge tummy swimming so gracefully. Hopefully i can keep swimming up to term.

I am still amazed at how some of the japanese ladies managed to be 8months and look like they just have a watermelon under their swim suit..haha. It`s difficult to ask too when your japanese is so broken and half the time you are staring at them wondering if your words are coherent or not..haha

Oh well i look forward to my last 2 months in japan and going back to my sunny, happy island. Tons of washing and packing to do. God help me!!

Baby says "kick , kick, punch, punch--hello and see you!!"- so Cute wish i could see the doctor earlier. Have to wait till the 14th to see him.

Tomorrow my mom gets her biopsy results, i am praying that it will be negative and that she will be really and willing to start every thing a new.


"The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!"-Matthew 6:22

~May my eyes always look towards you, Oh Lord and may i say each day "It is Well with my Soul".
^^21weeks