The Unveiling of Revealtions and Myself

It has been a great many months since i wrote.
I finally found that i needed this time to adjust and see where God was leading.
Noah is now almost 10months and finally i feel ready to begin my discovery of Christ again.

Today i attended the 3rd lesson of the Precept studies on Revelations @ FMC (church). Going into this i knew that this was going to take a lot of soul searching and some time management. Still,I do Want a Revelation.

I asked myself through out this 3rd lesson on Revelation 2 have i forgotten my 1st love? In relationships have i even loved before? What is love? I`ve always thought love was to have that physical chemistry between you and another person but is that all it is? Before knowing Him i can truly say i knew nothing. After knowing Christ can i say have i forsaken the precious times i had with Him? Honestly i think i have. I need more of Christ and less of "me" in my life :)

God has been good that he knows me through it all. The Divorce of my parents, the heartbreaks in my life, my past, my future sealed in the palms of His hands. I believed the 1st time i really loved Him was that night in my past where i cried and poured my heart to Him and believed that i can deserve more. I can have a better future. And God, He is a humorous God. He took all the pain and turned me around. The mask. The hidden words that i had never spoken in my heart, the wounds that had been torn and reopened He healed. He even gave me a man that showed me what love truly is. I guess it`s because of our common goal in Christ that we love one another.

D is so much more. He understood my brokenness and how God had changed me. I like to think we compliment each other ;) He says i`m the sunshine in his otherwise dull life and he the anchor in mine. How wonderful it is to love and be loved.

Loving Noah is more than i can imagine. Holding him each morning and smelling his baby smell just before he sleeps gives me pure joy! There are days where i get weary of the routine but i tell myself how blessed i am to be loved and that i am able to love this little, healthy, cheerful baby.

All in all i want more unveiling, I want to learn what HE, the Almighty wants of me. With all the changes to come in our lives may we continue to look upward and not falter behind ;)

Perhaps He is unveiling things to you too?

"Love
And now I will show you the most excellent way.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,. I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge,and if I ahve a faith that can move mountains, but I have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor andsurrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails"

1 Corinthians 13:1-8

Beloved know that He loves you just as He loves me ;)

What Happened ? This Happened.

Dreaming of Milk...



Sayang (love)

One of his fav toys from Aunty Mae
Another of his joy, his fingers, thumb, fist ;)

A Prelude to Valentine@s day our 4 years together




Chinese New year 2009

Gabe and Noah ;)

Its been wonderful taking care of Noah. He is almost 5 months now and 8.7kg . During these last few days it has been really tiring as David was away in Thailand and i had a bout of gastric flu and yet another stye under my right eye lid.

Yet despite the tiredness and sickness it is wonderful to wake up each morining , breathing in his sweet baby smell and thanking God for this miracle of life that is part of me.

It`s a new year and almost 3 months into it. I feel like i have almost awoken a new chapter in my life. Some days are mundane others filled with wonder and joy. Joy. I need more of that. I pray for a direction that God will give me and for the Joy in living and loving.


I am still reading " Passion and Purity " by Elisabeth Elliot in it she reminds me:


" What to do with Loneliness-

Be still and know that He is God. When you are lonely, too much stillness is exactly the thing that seems to be laying waste your soul. Use that stillness to quiet your heart before God. Get to know Him. If He is God, He is still in charge. Remember that you are not alone. `The Lord, he it is that doth go with thee. He will not fail thee neither forsake thee. Be strong and of good courage.`( Deut. 31:8. ) Jesus promised His disciples, `Lo, I am with your always` (Matt 28:20) Never mind if you cannot feel His presence. he is there, never for one moment forgetting you. "


Seems like God is telling me something. Sometimes when you look back at what you have read it suddenly dawns upon you ;)

Have a blessed week my dear friends.

Babe in the Woods

I attempted to write a while back, one night. However my mind drew a blank at the @_____.com . No matter how hard i tried i could not remember the _______?!? I tried blogger, hotmail, yahoo. Every thing but gmail. Haha i felt so defeated as i was at it for over half an hour. I decided to sleep on it and finally remember the next day.

Why the babe ?

I remembered going to the Chinese Physician (sinseh) and wondering rather naively that they would be giving me some herbs and send me a packing home ;) The 1st time they told me to cover my hands in wax (repeatedly for 5mins) after that Doc J snapped my wrists back to positions and did some rather painless but frightening acupuncture. They did this for about 3 to 4 sessions and finally it my wrists got better. However my stiff neck was another problem.

This was scary. Doc D asked me to relax as she stood behind me with my hands behind my back. She stretched me out like a pretzel and snapped my neck too.....oohhh Felt kinda strange actually but good ;) I tried to remind myself they have degrees from Nanjing University and one of them is a professor. Images of vampires came to mind as they sunk yet another needle into my neck.

Next they told me to lie down and my head was wrapped round a rather strange device. Every so often it would click and pull ( and i mean Pull) my head back a little. Needless to say i felt rather "light -headed" after it all.

For my last trip they told me i will be going for "tui na" sounds good. I wondered if it was the lack of sleep or lack of chinese knowledge i actually thought it would be some sort of a nice massage. Boy was i wrong.

This rather cute boy used his fingers to pull and press on every single painful spot on my neck for about 20mins. He asked if it was painful at some points. ( It was!) I managed to hold it together praying that this will all work out good. After he was done i thought i was finally over but our Professor came and she told me she will be doing "ba qua" . Didnt know what it was but if it was good for me what the heck;) It turned out to be the little glass bulbs that they burnt and placed on your back. Haha it felt like i had big, gigantic lechers sucking on my back at one point she asked if it was painful as she rubbed with the lech across my shoulder.

Having said all of that , the fact that i can type this blog proofs that it did work after all ;)

So I`m glad and Praise to God for bringing me thru it all. After all what Can be worse that The Labor Pain .

After 30 days

Our photos of the last month ;)
dun bother me please...


i love the feel of a soft bib...zzzzz
Me in my stroller




My 1st haircut by paternal grandma ;)



Red eggs for the celebration of Noah`s 1st month. To celebration a good 1st month of Noah`s life according to chinese belief.




Isn`t my Grandma and Nai Nai pretty?


Hmmm do i like my bounce???
Maybe...



Bath time again.


nap time.

It`s been a wonderful month of napping, changing diapers and early morinings. Noah is a wonderful baby except when he is hungry or hot then he gets really impatient.

I spoke to David yesterday and we both agreed that being a parent takes up lots of time from each other. When D goes to work i am usually asleep and when i am feeding Noah at night D has to sleep earlier. But God is good and reassuring - just as he had given Abraham a sacrifice in place of Isaac so has HE reminded us that we do our best as parents and as a couple and have faith in God that HE can guide us through. HE can heal all hurts and tiredness. HE is our ultimate teacher and provider.

We told ourselves that we have to remember to cling on to God 1st and maintain a good, loving relationship with one another.

Noah is growing each day. Learning to smile, stretching his head to look at the world. Devouring milk with all his might one minute and falling into deep slumber the next. A part of me wishes he stays this way forever another can`t wait for him to take his 1st steps and grow. I never knew one could learn so much from such a tiny person. Just like God our father loves and molds us.

I am looking forward to learning and being teaching Noah each day.

"Isaac said, "but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?". Abraham answered, " God himself will provide the lamb for th burnt offering , my son"- Genesis 22:7b-8

Our boy ~ Noah Chong

Just born 8th Oct 2008

About 1 week old
19th oct

We welcome our dear little angel , Chong Wee En, Noah ( Great Grace i chinese). Born on the 8th Oct 2008, 7:35pm weighing 3.6kg. We Thank the Lord for a safe natural birth after 7hours labor. All of us are doing fine and he is fully on breast milk now and growing stronger each day!

Thanks for all the well wishes and gifts!!

~May the Lord continue to guide us and mould us as parents. ;)
love,

proud mummy and daddy
Phoebe and David

"By faith Noah, being warned by God abt things not yet seen, in reverence prepared an ark for the salvation of his household, by which he condemned the world, and became an heir of the righteousness which is according to faith. " Hebrews 11:7